Slow Down



 

Slow Down

 



After our first week of school, reality began to set in.  We are really not here to just visit or vacation.  We are here to STAY!  It has really taken me a long time to get this house together, even more than it has EVER taken me with a move.   I keep moving things around and then moving them again.  I haven't even hung up our pictures we brought.  I just can't figure it out.  I am not really sad about the move anymore, nor am I mad.  I just feel scared.  I don't know what I am scared of or even why.  It is just the word that best describes where I am now.

I am someone who gets all of her ducks in a row, and fast. Then I go and help everyone else do the same.  I usually have my to do list ready to be marked off and the house in OCD condition at all times.  I must tell you, if you came to Scotland you would NOT see the same Marnie!  I am a little scatterbrained.  I can't get on top of everything just yet.  I try and make a hundred lists, but I just can't seem to get it all together.  And then just when I think I have it, a ball drops.  And not being in control....SCARES ME TO DEATH!

I absolutely know what I am suppose to be working on while I am here. It is to SLOW DOWN!  I know that because of the thousand signs that I keep getting daily.  Just to name a few obvious...We were go go going with all of our playdates and fun, Denman breaks his arm.  TIME TO SLOW DOWN.  We then get signed up for a gym with a golf course, gotta wait a month to get in. SLOW DOWN.  We figured out that the trash has FIVE yes I said FIVE different tubs to put our recycle items in so they will pick it up all on different days, BTW.... had to SLOW DOWN to figure it out.  Then I start moving everything again trying to get it all done before the week begins, and dropped a shelf on my foot and got a hairline fracture.... gotta SLOW DOWN!!!

There were a TON more that truly DROVE ME NUTS...Cable took three weeks, Landline and Internet took a MONTH, and there are many other random things that we are STILL waiting on.

So, by Sunday, I was DONE!  I spent Sunday morning praying to God about how I'm not sure I can still keep up.  I prayed that I really needed something to go our way.  I needed some strength because mine was just about GONE!!!  I am 100 percent dependant on my relationship with God.  It is HIS voice that I need to hear when I can't seem to get my head up or my heart right. 

So we all got up, got dressed, and headed to church.  I know that we shouldn't expect answers from God right when we ask for them, but I can't explain how much I needed them that day.  The band went up on the stage and started to play a tune that I had heard every Sunday that I went to church in Daingerfield.  And the tears began to flow...

Praise God from whom all blessings flow,
Praise Him all creatures here below,
Praise Him above the heavenly host.
Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost.

Natalie just kept hugging me and asking, "Momma, what's wrong?"  I told her nothing was wrong... now.  I knew right then God was right there.  He was telling me everything is going to be okay.  He wanted me to know that I have blessings all around me and I need to open my eyes.  When you have troubles that you think are too big for you to handle, give them to God.  He will walk you through the storm EVERY time!!!

I have a song  that helped me through this next week.  It is the song by Kart Stellar called
Never let go.  You MUST listen to it and know that HE will NOT let you go!

After the songs were over, the preacher got up to begin his sermon and started with...

May the Lord Bless you and keep you, May the Lord make his face to shine upon you, and be gracious to you. May the Lord lift up his countenance upon you, and give you peace.

This too is a verse that we say in my home church in Daingerfield.  I am NOT a big crier, and I DO NOT like crying in front of people.  However, this Sunday I just couldn't stop them.  It always makes me feel so much better to get a good cry out.  On that day,  I felt like God just took the bricks off of my shoulders and told me to BREATHE! He did that by giving me verses that I grew up saying.  It is the foundation of our FAITH that will keep us focused.  When you don't think your kids understand what is going on in church or in the verses that are being said at such a young age... think again!  It is the verses that we give our children in their childhood that will mold them later in life!  I have The First United Methodist Church of Daingerfield and my mom and dad to thank for that!  You made me into a Country Strong kinda girl so know that verses that I stood beside you learning as a little girl are keeping me strong still today!


So this week, I'm going to make it a Country Strong kinda week!  Listen close and I bet you will hear me singing it... LOL!!

Galatians 5:16  But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not carry out the desire of the flesh.